Monday, December 28, 2009


Christmas came christmas went. New year is coming, another year is coming.

Christmas at church was just the same. The food isnt that great without BBQ. the best one was wayyyy back in 2004. Damn that was the best. Had tons of friends in church around. We had lamb, corn and sweet potatoes. They say Christmas is all about giving. Well yeah, we were the receiving point. Magic tricks this year? I dont know. The Magicians were impressive and all. I dont know if the non christians got the message. Its kindda tricky that way ya know? New Christians get the wrong message and you have a hard time trying to correct them. Entertaining but I shall leave all other comments to myself. Its been two years and the church aint had no dramas. Dramas are the best way to get the message across. Perhaps its kindda classic and people are moving forward.

Tried and true is sometimes the best way to go.

My Music playlist has been in replay for the past few weeks. Need some fresh stuff. Sigh. Been listening to some old classics by Tyrese and Ginuwine. Old songs become new stuff after sometime you know what I mean?

Sunday, December 20, 2009


Girl listen when Im talking to you
When I tell you how much I love you
You know that I am always joking
But I never kid about my loving,

In my heart you are my only girl,
Only girl who completes my world,
I need you girl right by my side,
Need you in the day and the night,

Only you the only girl on my mind,
I cant help it youre one of a kind,
No matter what I do its for you,
No matter where I go its for you,

Trying to go rogue

So I made a Sharuum EDH deck and it just failed badly. Thats what you get for trying to go rogue. You either solve the metagame or you end up getting squashed. Landed myself at the 7th place with winning two games and losing one. Will not give up trying to improve it. Damn I hate Mealtstrom pulse hahaha! That thing took out multiple Borderposts and multiple Glaze fiends I dont wanna talk about it hahaha.

On top of theat, Rudy played a Great Sable stag. Tidak terbalik terus my Esper deck? Hahaha! Two colours protection. Damn gay

Been sleeping early like an old man. Sigh. No mood to go out and everybody just seems busy. I like sleeping early. The thing about sleeping early is waking up early... Damn do I hate waking up early or what.
It makes the whole day seem longer and by 1-2 Im already feeling tired. Talk about getting enough rest. Missing ayam panggang and malta. Gotta go grab some soon. Sigh...

Friday, December 18, 2009

A compendium of mini events

Well after about two months I have decided to give some thoughts about the two latest Korean Boy bands.

Yup, MBLAQ and B2st. I shall start off with MBLAQ. With Rain Jung Ji Hoon as their mentor and producer, I can see a resemblance. Not all of them are good dancers. The rapper Thunder is ok though. Most of them are already in their mid twenties. With two hit singles under their belt "Oh yeah" and "Good Love". I have always thought that Rain would make a boy band but I didnt think it would be so soon.

As for B2st, I dont know how far they can go. Unlike MBLAQ, members of the group are kindda young. They are like a BIG BANG copy paste. They are not great. They are not different. My opinion on MBLAQ is that Rain kind of rushed this project. MBLAQ seem kindda not so groomed to be in front of the camera yet. Im no talent critic but I do wanna see good stuff. Rain juggling Ninja Assassin, the Six to Five clothing line and producing a boy band. Ain't he great or what?

Finally finished reading the manga Boys Over Flowers. The story line was kinda shaky and the conclusion didnt really go out with a bang. Sigh.

Damn beat after playing HON. Might hit the sack early today. What an unfruitful day.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Being efficient

After an online test and reading some symptoms of autism, I can come up with a conclusion I might have Autism 80% Dont know how accurate these symptoms are but it sure messed up my day. To think other people had social problems when it was partially my fault.

The all common deck on Sunday was fun. Imagine all common decks. Did pretty well with an Esper deck. Never thought the Sedraxis Alchemist and Parasitic Strix combo would be so meta. Ethersworn Sheildmage turned the tables so many times. Awesome card. Come in to play effects are always good.



Just picked up THE SOURCE magazine from Eatons with Young Money on the cover. Daym. The Young Money family certainly has grown. With those fellows on Lil Waynes shoulders, Im sure they will go far. They have some talent brewing in there like Mack Maine and Drake. Drake sure exploded with his hit Best I ever had.
Tried out Left for dead 2. The Chain saw was super fun. Rawr! Rampage! Kill kill kill! cut cut cut! slash slash slash! Even so, my head was still spinning while I was playing it. Pening geng....

Friday, December 11, 2009

Once more

For those of you who know me well, I have made some poems in the past that were just ok. So I decided to take it to another level. Writing lyrics. No beat and no melody so this thing is still pretty dead. Oh well, there is a first step for a first thing for everything.

Still hear your voice echo in my head,
Still hear you screaming all about hate,
Cant hear that sweet voice no more
Wish I could go back in time
just to hear your sweet voice once more

It just aint the same cause the girl I love dont love me no more
Girl I miss your loving so bad it hurts
Its so hard for me to see you in the arms of another man
Cause I know he cant love you like I do

Where did we go wrong? (go wrong?)
Could you let me love you once more? (once more!)
Cause youre all I want and no one can take your place (no way!)

I still remember so many tears all over your face,
running down your cheeks like they were in a race,
Broke my promise I would never make you cry,
wish I could go back in time
broke my promise that I would never tell you a lie,

It just aint the same cause the girl I love dont love me no more
Girl I miss your loving so much it hurts
Its so hard for me to see you in the arms of another man
Cause I know he cant love you like I do

Where did we go wrong? (go wrong!)
Could you let me love you once more? (once more!)
Cause youre all I want and no one can take your place (no way!)

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Growth stunting

So finally I have the green light to study next year. Been so depressed about this for the past few years. Finally, some form of direction. Just a little late. Kindda sucks having parents who stunt your growth. Sometimes caring too much for your kids can be bad. They will never grow. I guess Im just no rebel. You care too much to the point you are controlling and being pushy. I guess there is just a fine line between being caring and controlling.



Registration is a BITCH I tell you. I have to "sahkan" my IC, SPM results and English results. This shit has been a speck of dirt in my eye since ever. It just makes no sense its almost ridiculous. Its not like anybody can certify this and its not like it even matters. I have to find some big shot to sign or chop my documents. These good for nothing big shots are never in their offices. Always outstation, playing golf, drinking or fucking prostitutes. What good are you if you are always out station and never in the office? One huge office and only one fellow who can do the job yet he is never around. It makes no sense why the documents cant be certified during registration. Hell, they did that when I registered for form 6.

This is just one of the tiny things that stunts the growth of any country. This is just the tiny stuff. Lets not get into obtaining trading licences cause that one is stupid. Its not like this is hard and Im whining. Its just plain stupid. Its like asking a person to drink soup using chopsticks or a fork. Trying so hard to make a simple process become complicated and troublesome.

Vision 2020? Just forget it. I just cant wait to hear the excuses they have when 2020 comes and it doesnt work out. No way lah. Not with the balik kampung lifestyle. Nothing can ever be accomplished. Pissed off with this country. One lady I know was sad about a friend giving up her citizenship to migrate to another country. Dont be sad Auntie, rejoice. Your friend is no longer under the clutches of a dumbass country. She is not the first and she will not be the last. Namewee was right when he said that frequent power cuts gets in the way of any developing country. Cina was so pissed off he stormed the tenaga nasional.

As I type this, my whole room is eneveloped by smoke. Got me feeling like Im in some Ninja movie or some Spec Ops game. Damn those neighbours.


Sunday, December 6, 2009


Anybody who knows me well enough is sure to know I love RnB. Hip Hop music in general. R Kelly and Trey Songz especially. Music by them are the best. Nothing by them can ever be called rubbish.
Not too happy about the beef going on between two of my favorite singers at the moment.

R. Kelly

Trey Songz

These two men have made some of the best music I have heard. Its kindda sad to see Trey saying stuff like how he used to be a huge fan of R Kelly and he is disappointed at how R Kelly no longer sets the trends but is now more of a follower of trends.
R Kelly himself hit back saying that personal comments should be done over the phone. Making a public statements like these are just to sell an album or start a beef.
I dont think they should be going at each others throats just to make an album sell. They should lock themselves up in the studio and throw away the key.

With both of them having new albums out, its great to have some fresh MUSAQ for my play list.
Nothing by RnB ever goes stale. You can always relate to it. Tyrese will be coming out with a new album soon. Cant wait to hear it.

HON was great last night. It was the only thing that really added flavour to my weekend. Its fun but it can be tiring when you are with the wrong team.

Two days down the drain.

The past two days just sucked like Edward Cullen I didn't know where to start.
Reunion on Saturday was crappy. When it comes to reunions, nobody is excited about seeing each other. Its like you have to bribe and extort people to come. It makes the atmosphere awkward and people end up being divided into a few groups when its about one whole family. I guess some people just don't give a damn about all this.
Organizing these kind of events is not easy. You have to call and sms so many people. Nobody appreciates it at all. Everybody just has something to do which is just more important and makes millions of dollars in minutes. I don't know who or what chose that place.

The venue was just awful. I mean, it was a nice place don't get me wrong, but a reunion is not like going to the club to chill, dance and listen to music. Its for people to catch up with each other. Ya know? Chit chat! Had the nerve to choose Growball restaurant. Thought that place was cool at first. The food was great the last time I went there. That place was dark like the bat cave and to make matters worse, we had veterans going up on stage to sing Chinese songs from the good old days. Who wants to listen to all that? To top it off, Malay people on stage screaming is even worst. I'm no racist but damn it, Malay songs are terrible!


If not for the mini karaoke session after that lunch, I would have been better off staying at home reading Shakespeare.

That night, spent the whole night making an all common deck for FNM.

Come Sunday, I bring my all common deck to find out its regular standard. Whole event is called off just because of the sudden change in plan. MALAS TERUS

Need to get away from this monotony.

For the past few months, Ive been reading some self help books. Actually they have been sitting on my shelf for sometime. Never bothered to pick them up. One of them is famous.


RICH DAD POOR DAD by Robert Kiyosaki.

Theres a thing about these self help books. Some of them cant be used in Malaysia. God damn it. Its irritating to hear that people have had great results after reading the book. Perhaps only 10% of the knowledge is even applicable. 90% is what the chinese people call fei hua. Doesn't seem to work for me. Would be better off burning them. Can halau nyamuk lagi.

Lets hope HON tonight will cheer me up a little.

Friday, December 4, 2009

A Harmless Demeanor

Well, thats the second time now I have been stopped by the cops and they didn't ask for my IC and license. I could have ten kilos of drugs in my trunk and they would just let me pass. Okay thats kindda pushing it. Reminds me of one time my friend told me about how he used to sell drugs. He made tons of money then but he himself got addicted to the drugs. Well, as a drug trader, you have to sample the merchandise from the supplier before you market it out to make sure you are dealing with genuine merchandise. Anyway, I asked him

"Kau tidak takut ka kedapatan? "

"eh tidak lah"

"camanalah kalau kedapatan?"

"gantung sampai mati saja bah"

"adedeh, sanggup kau!"

"tiada apa2 bah itu, hari hari kau training gantung diri. Kalau boleh tahan 1 jam, boleh lah tu!"

It was a joke of course but his addiction to drugs was no joke. Shabu to be exact. He had to take alcohol to purge his addiction for the drug. After 2 months of Montoku style rehabilitation, he managed to kick the habit but now he is an alcoholic. After being away from HON for quite a while, I guess I didn't do too bad tonight. Its a class reunion tomorrow. Just like old times, I doubt a crowd will show. It will be the same old faces. Ada saja alasan hangat such as

"Alaa kau last minute bagitahu"

"Saya ada urusan nih"

"Boleh tukar hari? Tidak dapat lah"

"Anjing saya mati tadi, tiada mood keluar"

"Saya malu bah"

"Siapa siapa pergi? Itu saja ka? Alaa, tidak paya lah"

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Tranquilized Elephant

Darn that cough mixture. Thank God I managed to get home safe. Kept nodding off at the traffic lights. Damn sedatives. Taking pills next time. Struggled so hard to keep my eyes open. Shouldnt have ignored the warning on the box saying

"This medication may cause drowsiness, and impair performance in test of auditory vigilance. If affected; do not drive or operate machinery"


lesson learned the hard way.


Been coughing and wheezing often lately its not funny. Darn flu is everywhere. Gotta get some rest and sleep early more. Neighbor's eldest son is getting married. Now they be beating on the kompangs like there is no tomorrow. Got that Nasyid thing going on too. Haven't heard that for about 5 years now. That thing used to be hot among the malays back back in school.

Had to call off HON today. Even after taking the cough mixture for 4 hours, my whole body felt like a leaf blowing in the wind. Light headed and weak muscles. All I wanted to do was lie down. Felt like a tranquilized elephant. Suria KK opens today if I am not mistaken. Thinking if I should go check it out. How much different would it be compared to 1B?

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


AIDS awareness galore. People have to start blaming themselves for bringing AIDS to themselves or to others. Dont we all love the good old classic excuses?




and don't we all love this?

"Aiyah! how me know him have AIDS? Him no say!"

Talking about how easy access to condoms can help prevent AIDS. Please. People gotta get smart. More condoms means higher chances or pre maritual sex. I dont want to go all pastor up in here but god damn it, if the vagina was on the stock market, nobody would want to invest in it!

Kids gotta understand that life isn't all about partying, alcohol and one night stands. There's more to it. Anyway, on the same page, there was an interesting one about why married men go out looking for prostitutes and mistresses. What the article said hit right on the bulls eye and if it doesn't ignite a spark in anybody, God save us. Anyway this is how it kindda went.

With women starting to venture out into the corporate world and holding high positions, they kind of grow apart from their spouses and family. Men feel threatened and turn to prostitutes and mistresses who treat them as kings. It does hold truth to it even if you think it doesn't make any sense or stupid. Women at home yell at their husbands and quarrel so often that the house is no longer a home.

"I am prettier than her! I am in fact younger than her! Why do you choose her over me?"

"Its simple really. When I'm with her I feel like a king. When I'm with you, I feel like I'm nothing"

"You use to say that you were nothing without me! Why did you change?"

"You changed"

Its a chain reaction. Parents do it and their kids follow. Simple as that. Nobody wants to be a housewife any more and we all wonder why the kids now are all stupid. Its not just the kids. Its parents. We having parents at 20 years old now and its not something rare. How are they supposed to bring up kids when they themselves messed up their lives?

Another article was about managing money. About how people spend lavishly without thinking. One statement the article had really made sense about how we should increase our earning power and not our spending power. Kids don't have to worry about money. Rich kids to be exact. They take money from their parents like there is no tomorrow. Blow cash on all sorts of things when they are in college. Living the lifestyle! In one month, they can blow over two thousand ringgit on all sorts of nonsense ranging from designer heels, designer bags to alcohol. Now here is when the real party starts. They graduate from college. Its all smiles and its time to get a job. WHAT! I am being paid only Rm900 a month! That's not enough!